Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Isit I’m not strong enough or this is too much to take?
SYF is stressing me like mad and I totally wish I can devote my attention to it.. just when I wanna commit myself into the dance, cheerleading have to occur and the competitiveness is crazy.. we are the house dat has the fewest practices and I’m sure we are the onli house dat haven’t choreograph finish the whole thing!! The thing is I no longer have the enthusiasm or the heart to be in this.. everyday I’ll be asking PORK or laohua,”can I quit this thing? I relli really need a break.. dance is exhausting enuf.. I dun need those lousy competitive rumours to come and attack me.. and btw youtube is open to all.. and I have no intentions of copying any steps from you.. like why wld I wanna penalize myself for dat? Costumes wise, the tailor made it dat way, she didn’t do according to wad I had planned coz she cldnt do wad I wanted.. so when she showed me wad she has alr done, I just have to accept it.. if u guys are so uncomfortable with it please be forthcoming la.. dun be hypocritical..
I cant do this alone, from the costumes to the music to logistics, even guys costumes I have to buy for u all.. the poms also haven’t settled.. I have nv felt like giving up so badly in my entire life. Now den I realize if ur heart is nt into something u’ll nv do it right.. just like I’ve lost total passion for cheerleading.. I knoe tis sounds dam unfair to those remaining cheerleaders.. and I’m dam sorry.. I can see ur effort, blame it dat I’m a lousy and inefficient leader, u guys are great.. it really heartens me to see u guys enjoying when u guys are dancing.. the thing is me I cant take this stress its driving me crazy..
All I want now is to DANCE.. in AJ dance..for my beloved dance mates.. I dun wann get involved in this political cheerleading stuff.. its dam scary.. dam dam scary.. seriously
CAN I QUIT!! SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!
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